Thursday, October 28, 2010

The Unspoken

Do you guys ever feel censored? Like you can't really say what's going on in your life because putting it on your blog for all the world to see will only make matters worse?

If you don't know what I'm talking about, then you're lucky.

If you do know, then I am sorry.

Because that's exactly how I feel right now.

I think of my blog like a journal and an opportunity to write for leisure. I get to share my life with you guys, and I am so thankful for the awesome, honest support system that I have through you all. I have tried to be as real as possible on here and not to appear fake in the least bit. Life is not perfect and I think it's okay to talk about problems and challenges instead of pretending like everything is okay. I feel like I've done a pretty good job at expressing my worries, fears, hopes, dreams...and everything else that makes me, me.

Lately a few things have been causing major problems in my life. I am pretty much responsible for building these hurdles that are now in my way. I wish I could write about them. It helps to get an outside perspective on the topic, but it also helps to just get it out of my head and onto "paper".

But, I just can't.

No matter how justified I believe that I am, I never want to intentionally hurt people (or start WW3) so these things are better left unsaid. These topics that are just "too much" for my blog to handle. I spoke with my Grandmother this morning and she suggested that I actually sit down and write about how I feel. Seems like the obvious, but it never really occurred to me. So that's what I'm going to do. Whether its a little post-it note or a novel, I'm going to start writing.

If you would, please pray for these unspoken things that I am currently struggling with. I am not in danger, nor am I sick. In the grand scheme of things my problems are minuscule, but as it turns out they are still challenging.

**I am sorry that this blog is a bit sad, but I am bit sad and I wanted you guys to know**


Chloƫ said...

I know exactly how you feel! I generally don't "advertise" my blog on facebook or twitter because I generally don't care for people I know in real life to read it that much for this EXACT reason.

But you're right, it isn't worth hurting others over, and I pray whatever the situation that God reveals how much bigger He is than all of what is going on.

Lauren said...

OH girl, you're definitely in my thoughts. I think we all have those things that become unspoken when it comes to our blog---or at least I do. I hope by writing you're able to work through some of those more difficult things!

Sydney says. said...

Ugh! I know that feeling. Although I don't keep a consistent blog right now (other than one I use with some high school friends to keep in touch), our world is into "sharing". Sometimes it's really therapeutic; other times it's more like seeking validation. Sometimes it's hard(er) to simply remain quiet. Know that you're not alone in struggling with feeling overwhelmed and sad. Praying for my new "non-Charleston" Charleston friend. =)

Anonymous said...

I'm praying for you baby. All will work out. I love you!!!!

Your Husband

Karren said...

Praying God will help you through whatever you are struggling with!

Tishra said...

I don't think any one will hold your honesty and transparency against you! I really love to read the end of Hebrews 6 when I need to be reassured of the hope and fullness of His promises. Sending you *hugs* across blog-land!

Elle Sees said...

if you just need to get it out, you can always email me. i give great advice and my ear is the best when it comes to listening. it'll get better, girl!

cait said...

I understand completely about just needing to get thoughts out on paper. It's always so relieving for me to write things out. Even writing prayers down is a huge thing for me sometimes. I will pray for you and your current struggles...that you would find peace soon and feel God's comfort. "Cast your cares on the Lord...and He will sustain you."

Blessings on your week!

Michaela said...

You're in my thoughts :)

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