Not too long ago, my husband and I were discussing our future and where we thought law school would take us. This conversation slowly turned into a little debate about the pros and cons of attending law school next year. How much money do we think we'll end up spending? What about time...will I have time to do anything else but study? When are we supposed to have babies? Everything was moving along fine, until Keith asked me this:
In order to do what you feel called to do, do you have to be a lawyer?
I sat in silence for a few moments and really thought about his question. My response?
Well, I don't know. I think I'd be happy in a courtroom fighting for injustice...but then again if I ended up running an orphanage somewhere or working directly with human trafficking victims...well I think I'd be okay, too.
So here we are, about a week after that little debate, and a decision has been made. I am not going directly to law school after undergrad. I still feel in my heart that this is what I'm supposed to do, but I also feel like if this was 100% right now, then there would be no confusion. As much as I'd like to take the LSAT this summer and apply to my top 10 law schools, I am just going to have to wait. I am going to have to trust God.
Please know that my husband fully supports my desire to become a lawyer, and that in no way was he trying to be discouraging. The truth of that matter is that law school is a HUGE investment with both time and money. (Lots and lots of money) Additionally, the job market for lawyers has significantly decreased, and yet more and more people are applying to law school. While these reasons are significant, they do not trump my main reason for waiting.
On the bright side, not going to law school doesn't mean sitting around and wasting time. It means that I can spend LSAT study time volunteering with the Make-A-Wish Foundation again.
Volunteering as a Wish Granter in '08...what an amazing, rewarding experience. :)
It means that we will be able to travel way more over the next five years. (Post on this coming soon!) It also means that the road to parenthood may just come sooner than later. (I believe you can have a child AND go to law school/be a lawyer, I just don't know how I personally would handle giving 100% to both at this age.)
So while this decision is bittersweet, I am very hopeful. God has been challenging me lately with trusting Him, and I think that this is just one more thing I'm going to have to hand over. He is the one ultimately steering my car on the path of life, and if this is not the right time for law school, then so be it. :)