Every year, I make a promise to myself to become the best possible version of me -- physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Each year is filled with highs and lows in which I discover lots about myself and my walk with God. However, the part I fail at every year is the physical part. And I hate it. I have never considered myself "fat", but I know that I am not where I'd like to be. I'm a curvy girl, but I also have
a few many extra layers of fat hanging around. My goal has never been to become a size 0, but I'd like to be a healthy 4. (Right now I'm a 6 on the border of an 8)
On Sunday after I dropped Keith off at the airport I literally had a breakdown. (He will be out of town this week for work) I began eating my sadness away. What started out as being hungry quickly turned into a "I'm sad and I really don't care" mindset. I ate everything from Girl Scout Cookies (dang you thin mints!) to ice cream and Chinese food. When all was said and done I was so disgusted with myself. For me, this was rock bottom on the road to healthy.
So yesterday I did better. I ate only when I was hungry and made healthy choices. I even worked out -- in my underwear. I know it sounds crazy, but it really put everything into perspective. I am 25 years old and would absolutely never go out in public in a bathing suit in the shape that I'm in. I am not healthy. I am not happy with my body. And I never realized just how bad things looked.
So here's the real question: What am I going to do about it?
Am I just going to write this nice blog stating my concerns, only to come back in 6 months and realize I've done nothing? Am I going to be that girl who is constantly complaining about her body?
The answer is simply no. I refuse to live this way any longer.
Every January 1st I vow "This is IT! This is THE year that I FINALLY reach my weight loss goal!" Well, you know what? Bump that. January 1st is nice and all, but how about starting over today, on this lovely March 29th?
Over the years I have collected quite the workout collection, so here is my plan of attack:
Mondays and Fridays
Wednesdays and Sundays
Monday - 30 Day Shred
Tuesday - NYC Ballet
Wednesday - Tae Bo
Thursday - Pilates
Friday - 30 Day Shred
Saturday - Rest
Sunday - Tae Bo
I know that it takes more than working out, so I will be diligently logging my nutrition at SparkPeople.com. Furthermore, in order to hold myself accountable, I will be posting every Sunday about my progress. This way, I am held accountable by all of you, my sweet friends. I am hopeful that this time, I will be different. I am ready for a change and overjoyed that I will get to share this experience. Through thick and thin, I am making a commitment to do this.
**If anyone happens to be in this boat and would like to start an encouraging-support-you-daily group, please contact me. I would absolutely love to have you along on this ride. :)