Life with Arabella has been sweetened like I would have never imagined. This precious baby girl is simply amazing. She’s an easy baby, just like her brother was. She sleeps and nurses well, and so far our only difficulty has been figuring out what I’m eating that makes her puke. all. over. me. 🙂 When I think about my daughter and how much I love her, I feel like my heart could literally burst. I felt (and still feel) this exact way about Gavin, and I never imagined that my love could multiply. But it did. And there isn’t anything that I could possible say that would accurately describe my thankfulness.
Our sweet girl
After Gavin was born, I experienced an overwhelming increase in my protective instinct, but also in the sensitivity of my heart for the motherless. On my first Mother’s Day, I experienced true heartbreak for children in the Philippines. And it’s happening all over again. My heart breaks a little each time I hold my babies, as I sit there thinking of the children in this world who aren’t held enough. The children who have to go without. Without food. Without shelter. Without outstretched arms. Without love. Without someone to protect them. The pain that I felt with Gavin is one that I am feeling again with Arabella, and I know that God is breaking my heart and preparing me for something bigger than myself.
Keith and I have always had a heart for children, and after having our own we see the need to live out Proverbs 31:8-9. “Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute. Speak up and judge fairly; defend the rights of the poor and needy.” For us, that means becoming a voice for children locally and and internationally. It means giving back. It means being His hands and feet.
God has specifically broken my heart for children in the Philippines and Nicaragua, and I will continue praying for clear direction for ways to help these precious babies. Keith has a heart for evangelism and feels that wherever we go or whoever we encounter, he can perform God’s Will. And while having two little ones under the age of 2 is a huge responsibility, we also know that we want to adopt. And sooner than later.
Parenthood has definitely rocked our world, and through this role God is breaking our hearts, and using this brokenness for ministry. And I for one am eager to see where He leads us.