This past month has been a so strange, and for the most part I’ve felt a bit lost and confused.
I think this is what they call grieving.
Experiencing the euphorhia that comes with discovering a pregnancy, followed by the heartbreak of losing that child a few weeks later is draining to say the least. I’ve withdrawn from life and have been avoiding people and places, but with a new year on the horizon I have a new sense of hope and wonder.
Bad things happened, but 2015 was not a bad year. I watched my health improve and then decline. I started a business. I restarted my blog. I fell in love with Star Wars. I decided that Florida is a lovely place to be, especially Tampa. And so is Asheville. I made new friendships and tried to mend broken relationships. We traveled. I changed my hair color. I made mistakes. I went back to the bayou. I spent my days with my precious children. I drove my husband crazy. I trusted in Him.
And I learned a lot.
I learned that it’s possible to make A’s in grad school if I stay disciplined and focused.
I learned that there truly is magic at Magic Kingdom.
I learned that it’s okay to write and draw and paint in my Bible.
I learned that potty training is the devil ridiculously frustrating.
I learned that forever friends do exist, even if you only see them once every few years.
I learned that it’s okay to press pause on one dream while pursuing another.
I learned that I can’t do everything.
I learned that what doesn’t kill you does make you stronger.
I learned that God will never leave me.
I learned that letting go doesn’t mean forgetting, but allows for healing.
While this is only a snapshot of my 2015, a lot can happen in one year. It is exciting to think that 2016 will be here tomorrow and a new chapter begins.
My wish for 2016 is to…
*Grow in my walk with God, truly falling more in love with my Jesus
*Be a better wife to my husband and mother to my children
*Make my health a priority
*Start volunteering again
*Take nothing for granted
I am thankful for all 2015 has been, but I believe that the best is yet to come (and babe, won’t it be fine?).