I’m not sure why, but that changes today.***
But that wasn’t truly the case.
In reality, while reminiscing over the past, I was shocked and impressed at how much Lafayette has grown since I left. Entire sections of the city that used to be empty fields now contained new roads and routes to get in and out of the city. Grocery stores, restaurants, and businesses that I’d never seen appeared before my eyes and looked like they’d existed for a while.
I am armed with passion and determination.
I am a wife and mother.
The next time I want to have a pity party because I’m homesick, feel rejected, or am having one of those days, I’ll read this list and remind myself of all the things I am, instead of all the things I am not.
I’d be lying if I said it was all rainbows and sunshine during my visit to Louisiana, because being 7 months pregnant and a single parent to two kids under age 5 was freaking hard, and I missed that sweet husband of mine. I also didn’t get to see many friends and family that I adore, AND the rain started, didn’t stop, and flooded everything. BUT…I loved this visit, I needed this visit, and I’ve come to a rather obvious conclusion — Life and death is in the power of the tongue.
So am I speaking life or death?
Which one are you speaking?
When Keith and I met, I was so closed off and had built so many walls in an effort to protect my heart that I almost missed out on the love of a lifetime. I won’t do that again. I won’t let my scars and insecurities hinder me from actually living life. I am determined to change my outlook of Charleston and to try to build relationships here. To bloom where I am planted.
**I am happy to report that since August I’ve worked on becoming more content in who I am and have begun to grow more in my walk with Christ, as well as in my community. I may be moving at a glacial pace in regards to the latter, but progress is progress…right?**